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Saturday, May 19, 2012

With love,Heaven



*Dedicated to A Phenomenal Woman, Ammamma (98 yrs)



Flitting onto better horizons, like a butterfly leaving a flower,
She was slowly leaving, a fact I was terribly trying to ignore
Tranquility set on her face, as her breath drew lower and lower
And she was no more, a frightening moment that seemed to last forever

She passed onto a better world they said, heaven may be
They garlanded their goodbyes with each and every tear’s essence
Gloom set over the entire family tree
And Smiles took a leave of absence

I was putting a brave front, standing tall with unwavering knees
But in truth, I was like a trembling leaf groping for a way for myself
To accept the reality and make peace
“She was old, she lived a full and happy life” I kept saying to myself

Alone, I lay in a fetal position, looking at her picture, reeling
That picture was the key; it unlocked my vault of memories
Reminiscing, alone I cried, for it was personal, a very personal feeling
Paying homage to each memory, dusting my heart’s galleries

Bringing those memories into clarity
The ones that I measure to be priceless and precious
Often looked at them with utmost joy and loving amity
And now I looked at them, hoping, they might bring a little solace

I didn’t cry anymore but I couldn’t smile either
Emptiness, sorrow, and an undeniable gloom hovered all over us
We’ve lost the family’s strength, the main pillar
That holds us together in happiness and in fuss

After the passage of few sluggish days, the fog slowly lifted
The family exchanged few smiles with each other
They learned to laugh in the memories that were gifted
 They resumed their humble routines together

I too smiled, but it wasn’t the same anymore
For I felt guilty, was it ok not to miss her anymore?
Was it alright to smile when she is not here anymore?
Was it not heartless to enjoy when she is not there anymore?

But then again, I was still remembering her even in my laughter
Maybe, thinking that she has passed onto a different world was a gaffe
Maybe she had just merged into my thoughts, into everyone’s, who were dear
Maybe her being was renewed within me as my strength and my laugh

Maybe that’s what heaven finally is
Being the laugh and the smile of your loved ones
Becoming their dreams, blossoming fragrant daisies
And so, I promise to give a beautiful heaven-my overwhelming joyance!

To you
With Love,
Heaven.