Deprived.

You vowed never to be apart

Blindly,I carved your initials deep into my heart,

now these unending tears incapable of clearing those

roll down my cheeks,helplessly writhing in deep throes

You said you wouldn't leave me at all..

But here I stand,in the dark,agonizingly,fighting my fall

You said it's 'Me', what the nightingale sings

But here I stand with my broken wings...

Never asked,with me why you fell in love?...

But you did say I was your treasure-trove

You did say I was your beautiful little dove

You did say I was made just to snuggle in your alcove

Now,when my heart's aching for a reason

You got nothing,but just a nail for my coffin

tried to bury all the kisses into the past...

But alas! they haunt.forever-they shall last

You've taken away the light
bringing upon me a blight

You've taken away the path

now I shall wither in my own wrath

You've taken away 'yourself'...my very own.

You've taken away My crown...My throne..

.

Eden.

The austere eyes pronouncing their malevolence
The aristocratic inspection adding to his parlance
The laugh lines...mocking in his sure conquest
The rogue hair,unkempt,in this brutal quest
The huge hands..in humongous masculinity..pawing me
The long legs..fencing my femininity..caging me
The Line on his torso...my reason to surrender

The Scent on his nape..my reason to render

The great old jacket hanging on the door
The jeans that lies sprawled messily on the floor
Mess that's resplendent
Mess that's my atonement
And I've become part of this beautiful mess
For I'm part of his heart..reigning it,as his duchess
Yet, I'm under his control..his command
But proud to be his own,to reward or reprimand
For his doings are honest and pure
They launch me into the skies of azure

And there lies my Heaven,
My Eden.

Oneness.

Fix me Cozy,
Make me Hazy,
Just wanna breathe,lie here
with you very close,very near

Lost in our glories
Spoilt by our fantasies
Every edge to exhibit,the trophies,the rubies,
Nothing to hide,even the inner manics,and the zanies

Into each other,we shall delve
all through dawn,dusk and till twelve
divulging the past mortifications
dreaming  the future mansions


troubles halved
worries shelved
Discovering us
something very pious

Cupid's arrow,by the touch of Midas
struck us,unveiling something precious
Something very true and sublime
with an assurance of a lifetime

Just you and me,not a care
Just your thoughts and mine,to share
Just your heart and mine,to flare
Just your soul and mine to bare

Submerged as two
Emerging as one.

Rain in my Heart

Like a dry leaf,
i was to hold to my dear life..
But instead I Hoped somebody just nip me off with a knife..
vulnerable to the breeze and sunshine..
I was tired of this thirsty dreary life of mine
In this unending drought,my cells malignant
how long was i supposed to wait for someone genuine and gallant?
Yes,I've been wooed..but been broken too
too many times to count,too many days of blue
They were just slight drizzles,giving me false hopes
And each time i walked,blind-folded,on those breakable ropes
And each time,i fell into an abyss,scattering into bits and pieces,my heart and soul
and EACH time,i gathered those shreds,matching them,to make myself whole
But,now,I'm tired,I'm tired of being tired
I stay with my hair unkempt,uncombed
my skin sallow,
my eyes shallow,
I waited and waited
Thirsty and starved
For li'l drops of your love,
For a lil taste of your love
quench my thirst
save me from this first
Bring me a lil relief
Give me back my belief

Let the drops touch me,and i shall bury my gloom
Let the drops of love reach me,and i shall bloom
I'm waiting for you to Reign my Heart
I'm waiting for Your Love to Rain in my heart

Serenade

Let's write our own story...
Our stealing sights, leaping as letters
Our sweet snuggles, waltzing as words
Our engaging acts, enchanting as expressions
Our silly-serious squabbles, poignant as periods
Our memorable make-ups, captivating as columns
Our breezy bites, tempting as titles
Our saccharine sweet-nothings, charming as Chapters
Our tantalizing touches,lustful as lines
Our rollicking romances, igniting as idioms
Our effervescent embraces, pretty as paragraphs
Our coquettish Kisses, swinging as sentences
Our fanatical fondling, frolicking as phrases
Our twilight's trysts, simpering as stanzas,
Our holding-hands, heavenly as Happy Ending
Our luminous love-story, eternal as an Epic.

My search for YOU

I wanna know what love is..

I will walk the whole way to know what it is..

I don't need any lift..any reservation..

Just pure love to end my starvation..

I know you're there,whoever you're

I know you care,so please stay...I'm not far

Been searching through every forest..under every bush

Been clinging,without any rest..to every lil feeling of mush

Seen your handsome image..blurred, but the love oh so clear..

Don't want to be just a page,but the whole darn book,very dear.

The lonely road sinisterly smiling...

"No one's there" it's squealing

But the branches of the trees..cover me,a sign of assurance

And I go on..walking towards you...with sole power of endurance

I see abstract signs of your love sent

And i feel it,in this nature's scent

And I'll cross everything..to find you "My Lochinvar"

Cos I know you're my meaning for "Happily Ever After"

Beacons of love

We're like the two lights...
flickering in the dark.
quivering with spark.
I have you.
You have me.
And nothing else matters.
I glow looking at your intensity...
You flow looking at me..thirsty.
Dancing to the soft tunes of the breeze...
Swaying in each others arms..me,you seize..
You fumble for me...
And I tremble for thee...
To be as one...
To become one.
I glitter with you or not at all
I glimmer within you or not at all
I ravish..content..with your love to the brim
I languish..vacant...without your love,I dim
Without you..i diminish into a mist

Without you..i cease to exist

Being with him

I love his yawn..
I love when he stretches out in the dawn
He's got the best of brains and brawn
and He has so easily made me his pawn


I love it when he calls me sunshine
I love it when he concludes "You're completely mine"
He is with whom,i want to sip every wine
and not to see him...will make me pine like a silly lil canine



I love it that i am obsessed...to him I'm addicted
He's like a knight,fighting away my dread
He's like an artist..adding colors...pink,blue, and red
He's like a drink,spinning my head



I love it that he makes my heart leap and beam
He's the handsome reality from my beautiful dream

I'm the boat and he's my stream
I'm the cherry and he's my cream


I love it that he listens to my every syllable

He makes me rabble and babble
I love it that he laughs and calls me a beautiful trouble
He was and is a dominant part of my every fable


I love it when he's impish
I love that..about me..he's selfish..
I love that he makes us both childish
His love is what i relish
In his love,I glow and ravish
And now I hope,that in his arms I perish..
In depths of his love..i wish to flourish

Loner.

I walk..

The fog is descending onto me once again

and i helplessly try to fight...batting my hands against the mist..trying to create a sense of me..my existence..my survival..my meaning

But in vain,

I'm a hopeless soul after all...

I walk

with my eyes shut...

not to blind myself of the reality but..

In a silly hope that the reality just ceases to exist...

In a silly belief that nature was just going through a transition

That it's temporary.

It's just trying to add charming colors to these sepulchral shades..

But in vain,

I open my eyes and am engulfed

by

the whites of a ghost..

the blacks of a devil..

Yet i try to battle it out...

I walk..

increasing my stride...

Questions raised in the corners of my mind...

Are these the cobwebs spun to hamper me?

by who?

fate?destiny?whoever writes our life stories?...

But I'm no easy prey..

You've to let the beast out..

to crucify me to death.

Are these the hexes thrown at me??

by who?

the enemy?the other-end?whoever is in power of you??

But I'm no weak soul..

I have become best at this.

I'll fight

till my

knees are frozen..

elbows are cut..

till my

fingers bleed

feet crippled...

till my

mind cracks the conundrum

and the heart feels the love

that it ought to..

that it deserves to..

that it wants to..

And it won't be in vain...

And it won't be in vain...after all.

Not just any guy.

Not just a guy who gives a bunch of roses
But a guy who waters a rose plant with me
Not just a guy who just laughs at my stories
But a guy who shares his darkest secrets
Not just a guy who compliments me
But a guy who constantly teases me
Not just a guy who sees the inners
But a guy who knows the insides
Not just a guy who sleeps with me on the mattress
But a guy who spreads the mattress with me
Not just a guy who overpowers me at dusk
But a guy who gives me beautiful dawns
Not just a guy who just ‘yum’s at my delicious food
But a guy who helps me cook rotten food
Not just a guy who boasts that I desperately need him
But a guy who surrenders, that he can’t live without me
Not just any guy
But My Man.

Beautifully Bruised

Smuggle me

Snuggle me

Take me

Make me

Tear me

Wear me

tune me

Croon me

Crown me

Drown me

Perch me

Lurch me

Rock me

Dock me

Derange me

Revenge me

Try me

Cry me

Seek me

Peak me

Pin me

Sin me

Decipher me

Lucifer me

Madden me

Weaken me

Fight me

Flight me

Then I’m yours

Tied and Tamed.

Beautifully Bruised.

Agony

You rob me of my sleep

You live inside me…so deep

I’ve envisioned moist dreams

With delicious beautiful screams

The insides of me you’ve ruptured

The essence of me so stealthily you’ve captured

My lips, arms, legs weary for your touch to happen

Agonizingly waiting for you to trap ‘em

Waiting for our lips to greet

Waiting for you to trick or treat

Comatose

Our engaging Endearments
In me, igniting the torments
To see our dancing shadows
In the beautiful meadows
Your quick Quiet longing looks
Your Mischievous cornering to the nooks
You playing with my tresses
Your Sweet long wet kisses
Am I writing my own fantasy?
Floating and flying in ecstasy
Not bothered about the pain
Sinking In the drug, happily insane
On a high!
Breathing a sigh!
Unreal bliss!
Wouldn't wanna miss!

A Stranger in the mirror

I can see the Sun shining on me..
But am numb to the warmth.
I can see the drops hitting me..
But am unaware of the bliss
I can see the pity in the eyes
But am oblivious to the compassion

I can see the food,colorful to the eyes
But it's still distasteful to the tongue
I can see Everything
But i feel Nothing
I can see the reflection in the mirrorBut it's still A Stranger in the mirror

baby-dom.

excited at the sight of colours...

just the gagaggogooo syllables...

laughing whole heartedly to something that's remotely funny...

crawling into the direction where they positioned you...

fascinated just by the clunk clunk coming from jingling keys...

so uncomplicated!

so un-toxicated...

wish i could be a baby again,

wish i could crawl once again just to lick something disgusting..without knowing what it is...

wish i could learn to stand on my feet and bring tears of joy to the whole family..

wish i could eat,drink,wail,yell..even pee

and yet they would think i am the cutest lil thing in the world...

oh!gotta bawl like a baby once again!

My goddamn life!

You'll pick yourself up

..dust yourself off..

You''ll learn to smile again..

and live again..

so the 'apparent' experts say...

the scabs cover the wound..

but what about the ghastly marks left behind??

constantly reminding you..of

what has happened..

how it has happened..

every infinitesimal detail..

the wretched truth staring right into your soul..

slicing...crumpling...grinding your courage

pity laughs of self... echoing until the ears bleed

trying ..trying so hard to smile till the muscles ache

How do i fight this 'thing'...hha!it hasn't even got a name for god sakes!

'love lost'is the greatest evil...it kills you...it kills you slowly..

injecting a sharp pain into your nerves..

kills you when you are trying to take a gulp of breath...

kills you when you are trying to catch a wink of sleep...

reminds you of the terrile sight of you being happy..

reminds you of the pithyful sounds of your true laughter

bringing you down...

with a fine string...

pullin you leisurely from somewhere...

at each tug...you can feel the pain flowing through that invisible thread

and you keep on searching..trying to cut the connection..free yourself from it..

in the dark..you grope..and grope..and grope

but in vain

you wail for help

cry for some miracle...

After sometime..how much ever long that may be..

you run out of tears to meet your situation

you run out of theories to suffice your existence

You just need to wait for that moment..to perish

but the heart has already...

it has given up

lying inside..

dying..

withering..

decaying..

in the darkness...

you go numb

numb not from fear of death

but from fear of living..

darkness floods..

darkess engulfs...

darkness in which...you can't feel one's self!

Circussing love

My love for you is a circus..

i walk on that thin rope..

scared that you might walk out on me..

but keep smiling trying to assure myself you'll never fall outta love..

I'm like the lion..

proud that i can catch anything..and make him my prey..

but I'm helpless around you..

cos you got the hunter to hurt..

I'm like the trapeze artist above the world..

swinging away in my glory..

but when i look down to reality..

i realize..

how deep i can fall..without you.

tear stains

You and me..

that was the pretty picture i painted for myself..since my childhood..

me with that smile..you with twinkle in your eye..but,

suddenly you vanished..you erased of off you from it...

and mercilessly all those colors went outta my life!

Now i stand on that plain paper..in this laborious life...

All alone!

tear stains replaced that smile...

now..a pitiable girl..with few traces of 'once a lovely girl',

love lost in her eyes

Clueless...

joyless....

Lifeless!

All by myself

All by myself..

none to give,

none to take,

none to listen,

none to talk.

All by myself..

none to spoil,

none to pamper,

none to laugh with,

none to cry over.

All by myself...

no longing look,

no soothing song,

no caring caress,

no tingling touch,

no kindling kiss.

All by myself..

Living lifeless,

Living loveless,

All by myself..

Yearning for you..

Yowling for you.

Let go!

Walking alone..on this path..
milestones crossed.
myriad of thoughts gone by.
countless doubts left uncleared.
Just 'blind' faith showing me the light.. *snigger*
isn't it ironic?
the deep rooted hope..
giving me the strength..
the undeniable belief in the voice of the li'l girl..
within me..
incessantly telling me...
"go on..go on..he's there..waiting!waiting for you"..
Oh!get me outta this plight..
Burn this hope alive..
end it!
Let me start over..
with no dreams of you..
Let go!Let go!

Drugged..

One touch i long to feel

One voice i long to hear,

One  smile i long to see,

One grab at my waist i long to sense,

One last gasp i long to mark,

...under your control..

I think about it every minute..

mounting up daily..

making me thirsty for your lips..

hungry for your body..

my addiction for you has the sweetest pain of wanting you more than anything..

anything in this world!

surrender

You play my body like a melody on the piano..

You touch my lips like the dew touching a blossoming bud..

you breathe against my hair like the wind playing with the branches of the tree..

you surround me like a fierce tornado

you take me into your arms like the waves taking in the shore..

you say 'i love you' like nothing else matters..

To these i surrender..

I surrender..

I surrender to you..

completely!

Us

To look you through that window pane;
But not being able to reach you..oh!lord! that pain;
But now you're with me,right before my eyes,Here!
your atypical voice and childish laughter i get to hear;
You're in my own lil whimsical world The Baron;
without you,Oh!this world would be sullen and barren;
For you i care,
everything i bare;
For you i wanna be!
With you i wanna be!
Together let us be,
forever let us be.

Ripe

When you call me "beautiful baby"..oh my heart's on swing

those words from your voice..

tugging at my heart..

plucking my heart's strings...

How i love that feeling!

everyday i feel it..anew..

It doesn't get old...

your love doesn't get old..

it only ripes..

The one

MY VERSION:
I want to be the pillow you cling on to when you're insecure
I want to  be the quenching drops that touch your lips when you tremble
I want to be the wall you lean on when you're broken
I want to be the diary you let your anger out to
I want to be the one that gives you that mystique feeling
I want to be the ONE...
who's made to love you...made to be loved by you.


DAD'S VERSION:
How I wish I be the pillow
pressed to your chest when you are low
How i wish I be the drops that quench
your parched lips,ending their nectar search
How i wish I be the shoulder you lean on
to push away your blues,and give you strength to go on and on
How I wish I be the diary,where your feelings you pour
To become your alter-ego,to make a royal entry into your heart's door.

Misery

Oh! Enticing moonlight,

Why do you try to provoke these feelings?

What are you playing at?

Oh! Lovely flowers,

Why do you try to evoke love?

What's the use of falling over me?

over this stone of a person...

There’s an end to this vast sky

But is there an the end to my misery??

There’s a lightening bolt hidden in every cloud

But is there atleast one ray of hope in my life??

A harp with broken strings

Can it ever make a melody?

In a sandy strenuous desert

Is there a prospect of finding atleast one blossomed rose?

When there was no peace on his mind

God had made this human…

And He forgot to write

Comfort,

Peace,

Happiness,

In my life story…

PS:the writing is a translation of an old Telugu song(mantalu repe)

Discovering

Look for yourself
Find for yourself
Realize for yourself

I’m not hiding it
I’m not putting it away
It’s not under my control
As I’m not under my control

See it!
It’s in the glow of my eyes when you say ‘baby’
It’s in the gasp I let out when you hug me
It’s in the blush of my cheeks when you kiss on my ear
It’s in the tremors of my body when you touch
It’s in the laugh I give when you say ‘You’re the most beautiful one ’

Feel it!
The celebration that begins inside
The leap that my heart takes
The fire that sets inside
The rain that floods the heart’s gates

Discover my love!
For I can’t show it
Discover my love!!
For I didn’t trap it!
Discover my love!!
For I’m lost in it!

My love....for YOU!

Haunt me!

All the sweet fragrances
I can smell
All the beautiful sights
I can see
But i don't want to
No!!I won't!
My heart's paralyzed!
ugly in it's prime,
Gored and gashed ghastly!
Bleeding away...
Why did you let go off me?
Why did you leave me alone,
to deal with the enviable and the pitiable?
Return!Return back!
I can't stand this anymore!
I can't hug you
I can't kiss you
For you're no more
But at least let me feel your presence
Curse me!
Hurt me!
Hunt me!
Haunt me!

Leave and Let die!

 

When there is no reply to my magical three words,

When the reply is only a ‘long pause' accompanied by an awkward smile 

What the eyes try to avoid is caught by the heart

And it's not a hearty place to be

Kill the heart

Kill it at once instead of shredding it inch by inch as each day passes

Kill the pretension

Cos it ain't no camera, it's my heart.

And End this twisted thing you led me into, with my eyes closed

Leave me

Leave!! and Let die!

 

Uncast the Spell

You left me expressionless,
I don't feel sad or happy or even least bit angry;
I don't know where my heart beats now,cos all i hear is a mechanical interruptions
I'm not living.I simply exist.
You walked through that door and left me to wither.
But why don't i feel a thing?i wish i could just feel...
I'm a walking corpse!What have you done??
Uncast this spell!Uncast this spell!

Whenever!Wherever!However!

Why does he have such control over me?
What is it?Is it his eyes?
Those two sharp black eyes that hit me right in my heart..
Wherever he looks at me?
Or is it his voice?
That manly voice that makes me melt with the heat of passion, tenderly
May be it’s his arms
Those Strong arms that make me give up everything just for one moment wrapped around them…
No..
No. it’s him.The complete HIM
He makes me close my eyes…roll my neck…arch my back ..spread my legs and curl my toes…
Feeling every vein of my body ache,..aching for sheer pleasure..
Asking for more
Yearning.
Hungry for him
I need it and I need it for my existence
More of him!All of him!
Whenever!Wherever!However!

CARNAGE OF FEELINGS

I heard a breaking sound
Inside me,
When you said those words
I heard myself cry,
But then again there was not trace of a single tear
It were those broken pieces

Every piece whimpered, quivered and shivered
Every piece battled to stay together
Every piece tried to reach one another,
Every piece lamented, bawled, pleaded

You said it was for the best
But…
How is it best when I can’t see you anymore?
How is it best when I don’t get to hear your voice?
How is it best when I am not loved by you?
How is it best when we’re not together?

Oh! Forget it!
If you can forget me…
Well then So can I

I can forget those moments on the road, after the early morning drizzle
I can forget those moments in the lake, right after the sunset
I can forget those moments of you lying in my lap and playing with my hair
I can forget those moments of the “hide and seek” played around the house

Oh forget it!
Who am I lying to?
You?
Myself?
I know there’s no way out of this massacre you caused
It was not carnage of lives
It was CARNAGE OF FEELINGS

Smiling Tear

A smile spreads on my face
When I see two tots walk holding hands
A smile spreads on my face
When I see a kid looking like he has the world, rolling his tyre, buck naked

A tear rolls down my cheek
When I get a touching greeting card
A tear rolls down my cheek
When I get a tight hug from my best friend

A smile spreads on my face
When I feel the first drop of rain on my face
A smile spreads on my face
When I feel warmth of my blanket in a cold weather

A tear rolls down my cheek
When I see my grandma’s eyes full of emotion, holding my hand tight
A tear rolls down my cheek
When I see a passionate romantic moment

A smile spreads on my face
When I smell the mud on a rainy day
A smile spreads on my face
When I smell heavenly home-cooked dinner

A tear rolls down my cheek
When I realize suddenly how much has changed
A tear rolls down my cheek
When I realize suddenly that the person is no more around

A smile spreads on my face
When I go to my mom, in a new a sari and she looks at me like I am ‘all grown up’
A smile spreads on my face
When I go to the movies an hour late and friends looks as if they are gonna kill meA tear rolls down my cheek
When I see my parents like a couple of 20 year olds
A tear rolls down my cheek
When I see my family floating with laughterA smile spreads on my face
When I hear your voice,filling the emptiness
A smile spreads on my face
When I hear that you're meeting meA tear rolls down my cheek
When you reach for my hand and squeeze it…with a look of assuranceA tear rolls down my cheek
When you tell me that I am beautiful and meaning it when actually I look dreadful

A tear rolls down my face smiling its way through
when you say " I love You"

Healing Potion

I take the blows
Thrust by the known unknown
I’m walking wounded
Burdened by the cruelty and curses
Bruised by the betrayals

I am pining for your touch
To heal my scars
I am yearning for your kiss
To savor the sweet pain
Oh let it be worth the wrath

Take me to the world
Where I am the most beautiful
Where I am the most prized
Dazzlingly admired
Desperately wanted

Take me as I am
Fill me with you
Relinquish yourself
Let me be your queen
Let me be…
Let me be…

rush

My ‘someone’
My ‘someone’…

When I wore a new dress
I wanted someone to tell me “you look beautiful”

When I was sleeping alone during that cold night
I wanted someone to hold me tight

When my favorite song was playing
I wanted someone to dance with me

When I was walking on my own on the beach
I wanted someone’s footprints right beside mine

When I was dead scared about that interview
I wanted someone to kiss my forehead and wish me good luck

When I was lil girl I dreamt about someone
When I was a teen I waited for someone
When I was in my twenties I hoped for someone

When I met you
I knew what I waited for
I realized what I hoped for
I understood how lil I dreamt

You are the one
You are my ‘someone’

Another Nobody

Roadside, below an autumn tree

She rests reflecting the same dying spirit as the tree

Looking like a log from fizzled out fire

Groaning and moaning

Tired from batting the flies away

Lifeless, humorless face

Wrinkled like a blanket

Scared silence in those hollow glassy eyes

A corpse is better than her

Given up!

From the disease

Worn out!

From the begging

Coming is the winter

No place to go, except for another leafless and lifeless tree

Years upon her,

Joints slackened

A knot in the stomach

A hole in the heart

No reason for her to hope

No hope for her to live

“If she dies, who might be responsible for her death?”

Asks the fierce wind blowing away

Sucking away a bone, the stray dog stayed silent

Grabbing a fly, went the lizard on its way for another juicy one

No knight in sight to rescue this pile of bones

But the dark night spread diabolically

Raising its ugly head, waiting for the moment

The dust flew about in its way,

A used leaf platter came by, flying

“This was not my fault” lamented it…

It went flying; hoping may be it could save “Another Nobody”

The thing that fits me best is YOU!

 

You understand what i mean when i have no words to describe..

You get which dish i am talking about when i have no clue what it's name is..

You know "when" that i "actually" mean i "love" it..

You know when my temper is gonna go up...

You know what surprises me...

You know that,that simple gesture brings a smile on my face no matter what the situation is

You know when to leave me alone

You know when to hold me tight

You know how to make me happy

You know how to treat me right

The best thing that fits me is you!

You believe i am worth you..even when i seriously doubt it.

You think i am the most stunning woman even when my mom wouldn't think so...

You sing a song when i need it

You wrap me with a shawl,when i wouldn't know that was the thing, that was missing

You happily make me coffee in the wee hours of the night,just cos i feel like it...

The thing that fits me best is you!

I never dreamt of a castle..

just dreamt of my guy by my side embracing me lovingly...

I never needed an ostentatious candle light dinner

just my man playing with the curls of my hair..

I never wanted him to write me a poem..

Just an"I LOVE YOU" from his lips...as a whisper in my ears

You made them a reality,

enriched them in a way that it almost feels like it's a figment of my imagination

How could you have reached my dreams? 

How and How i wonder...

That you know me inside out...

That you know me more than i know myself...

Thats why and Oh that's why..

I know for sure now...

The thing that fits me best is YOU!

Uncork me!!

The senses...waiting to be heightened
The thirst..waiting to be quenched
The sensuality..waiting to be explored
The erotica...waiting to be unleashed!
Uncork me!

All the emotions bottled up...
waiting to be taken in by someone...

Just uncork me!
I'll be worth it!
I'll run deep in your veins.
I'll make you sweat it sweet
I am the pleasure you never knew...
I can give you the moment of immortality.
Just uncork me!!

Don't think!!!

It's not math...
Go by your greed!
Uncork me!
And know what is life!
Uncork me!
And know what is demise!
Uncork me!
And know what is paradise!

Hungry stars

I was growing
A lil hesitant to get onto the world
but eager to see it
The beautiful pleasant world.
I heard strange tongues,learned some,understood some.
In a land where "my" birth was a "not-so-happy" incident ,since my Father wanted a boy...it scared me a lil bit.
But i felt gifted for being a girl.
With these lil disturbing thoughts in my mind i was growing..
my arms,my legs,a stomach..i am whole.
I am getting restless now,there is not enough room for me here.
When are you going to let me out?
I started kicking to show my anxiousness and my suffocation.

My first look of this world,with a dirty green rug wrapped around me was that of the great moonlit sky.
Ah! such a great sight,now i know why they talk about moon so much.
The stars seemed to rejoice my birth,they were mighty sparkling.

i was impatient about experiencing the "world of wonders" ,but i felt a little tired,so i closed my eyes to take a little nap.

Suddenly i felt something cold,really icy. It took a lil time to open my eyes.
The frostiness grew around me at a faster rate and i seemed to go deeper and deeper into this coldness.
I wanted to talk but didn't know how,so i cried,screamed,wailed.

By now i was completely inside the translucent liquid.
Then i thought may be this was some kind of exercise every new-born has to grow through.
I stayed patient for a while.Still no sign of taking me out from this horror.
It was getting harder for me to breathe and my crying was going in vain.
Through the liquid the stars suddenly looked HUNGRY,they were laughing at me but there was something cold and evil about it.

My breathlessness began,
my heart was beating faster
and my lungs seemed to be blowing up.
What am i to do?
what did i do wrong?
i am just born.
i want to see the world..live in it..experience it.
hello!!!whats going on?
i am sorry if i did something wrong..
i tried to convey all these emotions in my cries..
but there was no sign of anyone.
i kept thinking ..what did i do wrong..?
then it dawned on me : i was a girl..!
that's what i did wrong..
i gave in.

Precious Little Memory

Precious little memory
engraved on my mind
Precious little memory
started the whole thing
Precious little memory
Makes me laugh at all random times
Precious little memory
Wants me to come back to you
Precious little memory
Wants me to feel your touch
Precious little memory
Reminds
Of the Lazy day
Of the Breezy night
Of the Crazy YOU

Wonder Years

Oh Let me Go back to
The pillow fights
The coffee nights
The big old tree of neem
The huge dicussion on a silly dream
Oh let me Visit again
The constant Gossip
The green Park trip
The Trading
The Teasing
Oh let me be there again
The laughter which had no reason
The crying for the treason
The petty Jealousies
The pretty Fantasies
Oh let me hear them again
The I-don't -give-a-damns
The devil-may-cares
The friendly folks
The silly jokes
Oh let me see that again
Those years of Wonderfulness
Those months of Brightness
Those days of Freshness
Those minutes of HAPPINESS

He Does it for a Reason!

God made us fall in love blindly
Fully Fruitfully Foolishly
Let it bloom
God made us fall in love madly
Greedily Gladly Grandly
Let it laugh
God made us fall in love completely
Wickedly,Worthily,Wondrously
Let it grow
God made us fall in love wishfully
Deeply Dearly Dramatically
Let it unwind
Without you I am empty as a cave
For a glimpse I slave I crave
With you I am full as a moon
For a touch I groan I moan
Thats why!! and That's why!!
God made us fall in love famously
LET IT LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One Last Kiss!

everyone got a tear in their eye
I knew everything was ephemeral
But still i questioned God "Why?"
It's spring then why was the whether so sepulchral??
I felt in my heart a spasm
is this all my phantasm?
In a trice
I see her fly like an angel so serene so peaceful
I try to push the reason that could suffice
Ah!! her eyes so beautiful
For the last time
She tried to touch me,feel me
to cherish the moments of our prime
Blimey!!
A warmth set me ablaze
that feeling once again exploded
It made me amaze
it was all i wanted,desperately needed
One last kiss,one lasting experience
God have mercy!
Please give me the endurance
Why isn't this easyOne last kiss!One last kiss!

The Longing

Love gushing out of the heart's brim
Could I possibly ever be grim?
laugh!!
My Lochinvar, finally mine
With him I'll live,play and dine
Oh!please let me prance ahead
On the road of future i want to tread

My Soldier

The atmosphere was never this merrier
with sweets and presents piling up in the foyer
But once again I heard him clamour
as there was another tremor
he's actually my protector
But Diwali gives him the terror
AS the sound gets louder
he gets closer
when i urge him to be bolder
He wears the face of a friar
I find him searching for a buffer
to shield himself from the human pleasure
When the celebrations are over
he gets under his comforter
my tailed little faithful SOLDIER

The True Worshipper

It's dusty
and dirty
But it's still my country
and I'll clean it
Wherever i go there's hunger
Why would anyone want to linger?
But it's still my country
And I'll change it
Greedy politicians filled with corruption
Why would anyone want to make it an option
But it's still my country
And I'll clear it
Terror strikes at any time
Why would anyone want to be in such a state of crime
But it's still my country
And I'll heal it
It is not the Best
But I'll strive to make it the best
As it is still my country
And i truly worship it

Recession

Every morning
is a mourning
people thirsty for a ray of hope
in the dark they grope
time has made everybody a toy
while it has been the clever decoy
my!my!people in pandemonium
some succumbed,some fighting while the other re stuck with Valium

love

It's kind
But hard to find
Very few are blessed with it
Unknowingly many let it go and quit
But the one's who don't
It hurts,
It pains,
Sometimes it even kills
They say it's blind
But what an immense power it has to bind

Why can't I hate you?

I hate the way you look at me
I hate the way you touch
I hate the way you talk to me
I hate the way you make me feel

I hate it when you make me laugh
And worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you don't call me
And worse when you do

I hate the fact that by each day I become more of you and less of me
I hate the fact that you are always in my mind

I hate it that i can't Hate You
But helpless to love you