Hungry stars

I was growing
A lil hesitant to get onto the world
but eager to see it
The beautiful pleasant world.
I heard strange tongues,learned some,understood some.
In a land where "my" birth was a "not-so-happy" incident ,since my Father wanted a boy...it scared me a lil bit.
But i felt gifted for being a girl.
With these lil disturbing thoughts in my mind i was growing..
my arms,my legs,a stomach..i am whole.
I am getting restless now,there is not enough room for me here.
When are you going to let me out?
I started kicking to show my anxiousness and my suffocation.

My first look of this world,with a dirty green rug wrapped around me was that of the great moonlit sky.
Ah! such a great sight,now i know why they talk about moon so much.
The stars seemed to rejoice my birth,they were mighty sparkling.

i was impatient about experiencing the "world of wonders" ,but i felt a little tired,so i closed my eyes to take a little nap.

Suddenly i felt something cold,really icy. It took a lil time to open my eyes.
The frostiness grew around me at a faster rate and i seemed to go deeper and deeper into this coldness.
I wanted to talk but didn't know how,so i cried,screamed,wailed.

By now i was completely inside the translucent liquid.
Then i thought may be this was some kind of exercise every new-born has to grow through.
I stayed patient for a while.Still no sign of taking me out from this horror.
It was getting harder for me to breathe and my crying was going in vain.
Through the liquid the stars suddenly looked HUNGRY,they were laughing at me but there was something cold and evil about it.

My breathlessness began,
my heart was beating faster
and my lungs seemed to be blowing up.
What am i to do?
what did i do wrong?
i am just born.
i want to see the world..live in it..experience it.
hello!!!whats going on?
i am sorry if i did something wrong..
i tried to convey all these emotions in my cries..
but there was no sign of anyone.
i kept thinking ..what did i do wrong..?
then it dawned on me : i was a girl..!
that's what i did wrong..
i gave in.

Precious Little Memory

Precious little memory
engraved on my mind
Precious little memory
started the whole thing
Precious little memory
Makes me laugh at all random times
Precious little memory
Wants me to come back to you
Precious little memory
Wants me to feel your touch
Precious little memory
Reminds
Of the Lazy day
Of the Breezy night
Of the Crazy YOU

Wonder Years

Oh Let me Go back to
The pillow fights
The coffee nights
The big old tree of neem
The huge dicussion on a silly dream
Oh let me Visit again
The constant Gossip
The green Park trip
The Trading
The Teasing
Oh let me be there again
The laughter which had no reason
The crying for the treason
The petty Jealousies
The pretty Fantasies
Oh let me hear them again
The I-don't -give-a-damns
The devil-may-cares
The friendly folks
The silly jokes
Oh let me see that again
Those years of Wonderfulness
Those months of Brightness
Those days of Freshness
Those minutes of HAPPINESS

He Does it for a Reason!

God made us fall in love blindly
Fully Fruitfully Foolishly
Let it bloom
God made us fall in love madly
Greedily Gladly Grandly
Let it laugh
God made us fall in love completely
Wickedly,Worthily,Wondrously
Let it grow
God made us fall in love wishfully
Deeply Dearly Dramatically
Let it unwind
Without you I am empty as a cave
For a glimpse I slave I crave
With you I am full as a moon
For a touch I groan I moan
Thats why!! and That's why!!
God made us fall in love famously
LET IT LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One Last Kiss!

everyone got a tear in their eye
I knew everything was ephemeral
But still i questioned God "Why?"
It's spring then why was the whether so sepulchral??
I felt in my heart a spasm
is this all my phantasm?
In a trice
I see her fly like an angel so serene so peaceful
I try to push the reason that could suffice
Ah!! her eyes so beautiful
For the last time
She tried to touch me,feel me
to cherish the moments of our prime
Blimey!!
A warmth set me ablaze
that feeling once again exploded
It made me amaze
it was all i wanted,desperately needed
One last kiss,one lasting experience
God have mercy!
Please give me the endurance
Why isn't this easyOne last kiss!One last kiss!

The Longing

Love gushing out of the heart's brim
Could I possibly ever be grim?
laugh!!
My Lochinvar, finally mine
With him I'll live,play and dine
Oh!please let me prance ahead
On the road of future i want to tread

My Soldier

The atmosphere was never this merrier
with sweets and presents piling up in the foyer
But once again I heard him clamour
as there was another tremor
he's actually my protector
But Diwali gives him the terror
AS the sound gets louder
he gets closer
when i urge him to be bolder
He wears the face of a friar
I find him searching for a buffer
to shield himself from the human pleasure
When the celebrations are over
he gets under his comforter
my tailed little faithful SOLDIER

The True Worshipper

It's dusty
and dirty
But it's still my country
and I'll clean it
Wherever i go there's hunger
Why would anyone want to linger?
But it's still my country
And I'll change it
Greedy politicians filled with corruption
Why would anyone want to make it an option
But it's still my country
And I'll clear it
Terror strikes at any time
Why would anyone want to be in such a state of crime
But it's still my country
And I'll heal it
It is not the Best
But I'll strive to make it the best
As it is still my country
And i truly worship it

Recession

Every morning
is a mourning
people thirsty for a ray of hope
in the dark they grope
time has made everybody a toy
while it has been the clever decoy
my!my!people in pandemonium
some succumbed,some fighting while the other re stuck with Valium

love

It's kind
But hard to find
Very few are blessed with it
Unknowingly many let it go and quit
But the one's who don't
It hurts,
It pains,
Sometimes it even kills
They say it's blind
But what an immense power it has to bind

Why can't I hate you?

I hate the way you look at me
I hate the way you touch
I hate the way you talk to me
I hate the way you make me feel

I hate it when you make me laugh
And worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you don't call me
And worse when you do

I hate the fact that by each day I become more of you and less of me
I hate the fact that you are always in my mind

I hate it that i can't Hate You
But helpless to love you

He.........

He comes into my dreams ….
He brings a smile on my face,
A twinkle in my eyes,
He is music to my ears,
His voice fills tender warmth in me
He reaches the place in my heart, none have ever reached
In his arms I experience the comfort I never knew existed,
His touch makes me blush like a little girlHis smile brings me an unending happiness
He fills the void in me
I don’t know him
Yet I am madly in love with him……

Don't break my heart

Without Sunshine,there is no day
Without Spring,there is no song
Without zing,there is no celebration
Without pang,there is no love

You are my Sunshine
You are my Spring
You are my zing
You are my pang

WITHOUT YOU THERE IS NO ME

It's Love!!!

I woke up beside him...experiencing the deepest satisfaction and contentment...with a broadest smile on my face

The moment i met him i knew...it was HIM....my prince...my Lochinvar...my soul mate
Days passed as seconds in his presence.....We don't need the world..we had each other....

Every weekend was romantic.......candlelight dinners,moonlight walks,hand-in-hand walks on the shore,swims in the sea....

It was my B'day,
he took me to an isolated but calm and serene place ......
one table with two pretty chairs,it was like heaven.....
he led me to the chair and sat in the other facing me....
I was lost in his eyes,full of love,warmth and affection...
seconds passed..minutes passed,moments passed..
The waiter placed a cake...but i couldn't divert my eyes..
He caressed my hand and gestured to the cake...
it was the shape of a bride and bridegroom and it did not read HAPPY B'DAY
but instead it read "Will you marry me?"
It was a feeling i can never express....
A tear rolled over my cheek....with a smile i said "YES"

One month from then we stood in the hall saying"I Do" to each other....

My child

She is 92....but she's still young...her eyes,ears,legs & arms are not giving their best but she always gives her BEST.

Whenever i go to her place i see her sitting before the idiot box which is screaming at top of it's voice with a volume of about 59...i immediately grab the remote and mute it...and shout at my grandma"it's a theatre or a house...what's this volume...it's driving me crazy"
My grandma wears this usual expression of "what-can-i-do-it's-my-old-age"which makes me hit myself for my behaviour...

slowly i get used to the roof-cracking volume

*******

whenever i bring my friend to introduce her...just after the introduction...she starts shooting about a hundred questions at my friend.....before you start answering the first one,you'll find another one making it's way through the traffic(of questions)

*******

The great poet William Shakespeare said that old age is second childhood in his work"the seven ages"

It's so true...my grandma is just like a baby.....curious..needs support...asks many questions...has an answer for anything.

At a certain stage i feel like bursting..in her presence..in the presence of her questions and the in the presence of her TV volume...

But she's my child...my 92 year old child!!!

i love her!!!

cry

Crying is one of the best expressions.
crying doesn't make you weak instead it makes you strong.

Cry your heart out for the person you love the most
Cry your heart out in success
Cry your heart out in failure
Cry your heart out during the golden moments
Cry your heart out in pain and grief
Cry your heart out when you lose someone
Cry your heart out when you are scared
Cry your heart out when you are depressed
Cry your heart out when you are angry
Cry your heart out for your family,your society,your country....for yourself & your sake

CRY YOUR HEART OUT WHEN YOU FEEL !!!!

the darkest side....

This story is a true story of a young girl of 18 yrs.

“I was 12 yrs old when I got married to my husband who was 16 that time”
I couldn’t believe my ears when she was telling me this….in this 21st century people are still living like this…my heart started aching while listening to her story.

This young woman works as a maid in my grandma’s house…she’s very clever and tactic...though an illiterate. she’s from mehboobnagar district of Andhra Pradesh

She continued…
“After I got married I came to this area…my husband is good to me unlike the others…..but he’s very fickle-minded …he keeps jumping from one job to the other...at first he was a mason...then a carpenter…then a butcher…then a factory worker…presently he’s working in a bakery….due to his instability…we are unable to feed ourselves and our children properly”.
For this I felt anger rising in me …I couldn’t stop myself from asking “why didn’t your parents see his background?”
With a high pitched laugh (that said I was speaking like a fool) she replied “who cares about his background…they just wanted to get rid of me…a girl is always a burden for her parents”

“Then?” I questioned…

“then…I became pregnant at the age of mmm…13 and 16”and for this my reaction was involuntary and unconscious”whaaa…pregnant?”(With an expression of disgust on my face)and she coolly replied”yaa..And again I am pregnant…I hope this time it’s a boy…the first two are girls…and my husband was not happy with me…ha “ayi maji”…chalo main chalti hoon…phir se ma dantegi”(my grandama shouted at her for not completing her work) …she slowly got up leaving me in a lot of confusion and disgust.

I immediately looked at my mother for some sort of explanation that could comfort me…but she just gave me weak smile...and that smile made me understand this bizarre world.

And that moment I sensed mixed feelings…happy that I wasn’t the victim of this horrible life…sad for this clever&beautiful lady whose talent is just …just wasted.

As I think more of it…I realize more pain….she was pregnant when she could hardly take care of herself…she’s the mother of two and is nourishing them without any knowledge of motherhood….she doesn’t know or even think or plan about the horrible future she’s going to face…..

With a deep sigh of anguish I slip into an uncomfortable sleep thinking about my country which is still in the clutches of child marriage…female infanticide…gender inequality…illiteracy…population explosion…And the mother of all these ....

IGNORANCE

TEARS OF LOVE

shivering
"I agree to lead this wonderful journey of my life with you.....neither before you nor after you...with you.The life ahead waiting for us filled with happiness and difficulties...i promise that I'll share your happiness,sorrow,success and difficulties. I'll make the best "better-half"ever.

We'll be the queen and king of our sweet little kingdom with our princess and prince...May we emerge successful in this most important journey of our life.

With you on my side.....i forget everything...
you are my strength and you are my weakness...
With you on my side i can combat the obstacles in life that i can ever think of...
With you on my side i can achieve the things that i haven't achieved even in my dizziest dreams...
you being with me is what i always wanted..and...needed.

I LOVE YOU!!!