Deprived.

You vowed never to be apart

Blindly,I carved your initials deep into my heart,

now these unending tears incapable of clearing those

roll down my cheeks,helplessly writhing in deep throes

You said you wouldn't leave me at all..

But here I stand,in the dark,agonizingly,fighting my fall

You said it's 'Me', what the nightingale sings

But here I stand with my broken wings...

Never asked,with me why you fell in love?...

But you did say I was your treasure-trove

You did say I was your beautiful little dove

You did say I was made just to snuggle in your alcove

Now,when my heart's aching for a reason

You got nothing,but just a nail for my coffin

tried to bury all the kisses into the past...

But alas! they haunt.forever-they shall last

You've taken away the light
bringing upon me a blight

You've taken away the path

now I shall wither in my own wrath

You've taken away 'yourself'...my very own.

You've taken away My crown...My throne..

.

Eden.

The austere eyes pronouncing their malevolence
The aristocratic inspection adding to his parlance
The laugh lines...mocking in his sure conquest
The rogue hair,unkempt,in this brutal quest
The huge hands..in humongous masculinity..pawing me
The long legs..fencing my femininity..caging me
The Line on his torso...my reason to surrender

The Scent on his nape..my reason to render

The great old jacket hanging on the door
The jeans that lies sprawled messily on the floor
Mess that's resplendent
Mess that's my atonement
And I've become part of this beautiful mess
For I'm part of his heart..reigning it,as his duchess
Yet, I'm under his control..his command
But proud to be his own,to reward or reprimand
For his doings are honest and pure
They launch me into the skies of azure

And there lies my Heaven,
My Eden.

Oneness.

Fix me Cozy,
Make me Hazy,
Just wanna breathe,lie here
with you very close,very near

Lost in our glories
Spoilt by our fantasies
Every edge to exhibit,the trophies,the rubies,
Nothing to hide,even the inner manics,and the zanies

Into each other,we shall delve
all through dawn,dusk and till twelve
divulging the past mortifications
dreaming  the future mansions


troubles halved
worries shelved
Discovering us
something very pious

Cupid's arrow,by the touch of Midas
struck us,unveiling something precious
Something very true and sublime
with an assurance of a lifetime

Just you and me,not a care
Just your thoughts and mine,to share
Just your heart and mine,to flare
Just your soul and mine to bare

Submerged as two
Emerging as one.

Rain in my Heart

Like a dry leaf,
i was to hold to my dear life..
But instead I Hoped somebody just nip me off with a knife..
vulnerable to the breeze and sunshine..
I was tired of this thirsty dreary life of mine
In this unending drought,my cells malignant
how long was i supposed to wait for someone genuine and gallant?
Yes,I've been wooed..but been broken too
too many times to count,too many days of blue
They were just slight drizzles,giving me false hopes
And each time i walked,blind-folded,on those breakable ropes
And each time,i fell into an abyss,scattering into bits and pieces,my heart and soul
and EACH time,i gathered those shreds,matching them,to make myself whole
But,now,I'm tired,I'm tired of being tired
I stay with my hair unkempt,uncombed
my skin sallow,
my eyes shallow,
I waited and waited
Thirsty and starved
For li'l drops of your love,
For a lil taste of your love
quench my thirst
save me from this first
Bring me a lil relief
Give me back my belief

Let the drops touch me,and i shall bury my gloom
Let the drops of love reach me,and i shall bloom
I'm waiting for you to Reign my Heart
I'm waiting for Your Love to Rain in my heart

Serenade

Let's write our own story...
Our stealing sights, leaping as letters
Our sweet snuggles, waltzing as words
Our engaging acts, enchanting as expressions
Our silly-serious squabbles, poignant as periods
Our memorable make-ups, captivating as columns
Our breezy bites, tempting as titles
Our saccharine sweet-nothings, charming as Chapters
Our tantalizing touches,lustful as lines
Our rollicking romances, igniting as idioms
Our effervescent embraces, pretty as paragraphs
Our coquettish Kisses, swinging as sentences
Our fanatical fondling, frolicking as phrases
Our twilight's trysts, simpering as stanzas,
Our holding-hands, heavenly as Happy Ending
Our luminous love-story, eternal as an Epic.

My search for YOU

I wanna know what love is..

I will walk the whole way to know what it is..

I don't need any lift..any reservation..

Just pure love to end my starvation..

I know you're there,whoever you're

I know you care,so please stay...I'm not far

Been searching through every forest..under every bush

Been clinging,without any rest..to every lil feeling of mush

Seen your handsome image..blurred, but the love oh so clear..

Don't want to be just a page,but the whole darn book,very dear.

The lonely road sinisterly smiling...

"No one's there" it's squealing

But the branches of the trees..cover me,a sign of assurance

And I go on..walking towards you...with sole power of endurance

I see abstract signs of your love sent

And i feel it,in this nature's scent

And I'll cross everything..to find you "My Lochinvar"

Cos I know you're my meaning for "Happily Ever After"

Beacons of love

We're like the two lights...
flickering in the dark.
quivering with spark.
I have you.
You have me.
And nothing else matters.
I glow looking at your intensity...
You flow looking at me..thirsty.
Dancing to the soft tunes of the breeze...
Swaying in each others arms..me,you seize..
You fumble for me...
And I tremble for thee...
To be as one...
To become one.
I glitter with you or not at all
I glimmer within you or not at all
I ravish..content..with your love to the brim
I languish..vacant...without your love,I dim
Without you..i diminish into a mist

Without you..i cease to exist

Being with him

I love his yawn..
I love when he stretches out in the dawn
He's got the best of brains and brawn
and He has so easily made me his pawn


I love it when he calls me sunshine
I love it when he concludes "You're completely mine"
He is with whom,i want to sip every wine
and not to see him...will make me pine like a silly lil canine



I love it that i am obsessed...to him I'm addicted
He's like a knight,fighting away my dread
He's like an artist..adding colors...pink,blue, and red
He's like a drink,spinning my head



I love it that he makes my heart leap and beam
He's the handsome reality from my beautiful dream

I'm the boat and he's my stream
I'm the cherry and he's my cream


I love it that he listens to my every syllable

He makes me rabble and babble
I love it that he laughs and calls me a beautiful trouble
He was and is a dominant part of my every fable


I love it when he's impish
I love that..about me..he's selfish..
I love that he makes us both childish
His love is what i relish
In his love,I glow and ravish
And now I hope,that in his arms I perish..
In depths of his love..i wish to flourish

Loner.

I walk..

The fog is descending onto me once again

and i helplessly try to fight...batting my hands against the mist..trying to create a sense of me..my existence..my survival..my meaning

But in vain,

I'm a hopeless soul after all...

I walk

with my eyes shut...

not to blind myself of the reality but..

In a silly hope that the reality just ceases to exist...

In a silly belief that nature was just going through a transition

That it's temporary.

It's just trying to add charming colors to these sepulchral shades..

But in vain,

I open my eyes and am engulfed

by

the whites of a ghost..

the blacks of a devil..

Yet i try to battle it out...

I walk..

increasing my stride...

Questions raised in the corners of my mind...

Are these the cobwebs spun to hamper me?

by who?

fate?destiny?whoever writes our life stories?...

But I'm no easy prey..

You've to let the beast out..

to crucify me to death.

Are these the hexes thrown at me??

by who?

the enemy?the other-end?whoever is in power of you??

But I'm no weak soul..

I have become best at this.

I'll fight

till my

knees are frozen..

elbows are cut..

till my

fingers bleed

feet crippled...

till my

mind cracks the conundrum

and the heart feels the love

that it ought to..

that it deserves to..

that it wants to..

And it won't be in vain...

And it won't be in vain...after all.

Not just any guy.

Not just a guy who gives a bunch of roses
But a guy who waters a rose plant with me
Not just a guy who just laughs at my stories
But a guy who shares his darkest secrets
Not just a guy who compliments me
But a guy who constantly teases me
Not just a guy who sees the inners
But a guy who knows the insides
Not just a guy who sleeps with me on the mattress
But a guy who spreads the mattress with me
Not just a guy who overpowers me at dusk
But a guy who gives me beautiful dawns
Not just a guy who just ‘yum’s at my delicious food
But a guy who helps me cook rotten food
Not just a guy who boasts that I desperately need him
But a guy who surrenders, that he can’t live without me
Not just any guy
But My Man.

Beautifully Bruised

Smuggle me

Snuggle me

Take me

Make me

Tear me

Wear me

tune me

Croon me

Crown me

Drown me

Perch me

Lurch me

Rock me

Dock me

Derange me

Revenge me

Try me

Cry me

Seek me

Peak me

Pin me

Sin me

Decipher me

Lucifer me

Madden me

Weaken me

Fight me

Flight me

Then I’m yours

Tied and Tamed.

Beautifully Bruised.

Agony

You rob me of my sleep

You live inside me…so deep

I’ve envisioned moist dreams

With delicious beautiful screams

The insides of me you’ve ruptured

The essence of me so stealthily you’ve captured

My lips, arms, legs weary for your touch to happen

Agonizingly waiting for you to trap ‘em

Waiting for our lips to greet

Waiting for you to trick or treat

Comatose

Our engaging Endearments
In me, igniting the torments
To see our dancing shadows
In the beautiful meadows
Your quick Quiet longing looks
Your Mischievous cornering to the nooks
You playing with my tresses
Your Sweet long wet kisses
Am I writing my own fantasy?
Floating and flying in ecstasy
Not bothered about the pain
Sinking In the drug, happily insane
On a high!
Breathing a sigh!
Unreal bliss!
Wouldn't wanna miss!

A Stranger in the mirror

I can see the Sun shining on me..
But am numb to the warmth.
I can see the drops hitting me..
But am unaware of the bliss
I can see the pity in the eyes
But am oblivious to the compassion

I can see the food,colorful to the eyes
But it's still distasteful to the tongue
I can see Everything
But i feel Nothing
I can see the reflection in the mirrorBut it's still A Stranger in the mirror

baby-dom.

excited at the sight of colours...

just the gagaggogooo syllables...

laughing whole heartedly to something that's remotely funny...

crawling into the direction where they positioned you...

fascinated just by the clunk clunk coming from jingling keys...

so uncomplicated!

so un-toxicated...

wish i could be a baby again,

wish i could crawl once again just to lick something disgusting..without knowing what it is...

wish i could learn to stand on my feet and bring tears of joy to the whole family..

wish i could eat,drink,wail,yell..even pee

and yet they would think i am the cutest lil thing in the world...

oh!gotta bawl like a baby once again!

My goddamn life!

You'll pick yourself up

..dust yourself off..

You''ll learn to smile again..

and live again..

so the 'apparent' experts say...

the scabs cover the wound..

but what about the ghastly marks left behind??

constantly reminding you..of

what has happened..

how it has happened..

every infinitesimal detail..

the wretched truth staring right into your soul..

slicing...crumpling...grinding your courage

pity laughs of self... echoing until the ears bleed

trying ..trying so hard to smile till the muscles ache

How do i fight this 'thing'...hha!it hasn't even got a name for god sakes!

'love lost'is the greatest evil...it kills you...it kills you slowly..

injecting a sharp pain into your nerves..

kills you when you are trying to take a gulp of breath...

kills you when you are trying to catch a wink of sleep...

reminds you of the terrile sight of you being happy..

reminds you of the pithyful sounds of your true laughter

bringing you down...

with a fine string...

pullin you leisurely from somewhere...

at each tug...you can feel the pain flowing through that invisible thread

and you keep on searching..trying to cut the connection..free yourself from it..

in the dark..you grope..and grope..and grope

but in vain

you wail for help

cry for some miracle...

After sometime..how much ever long that may be..

you run out of tears to meet your situation

you run out of theories to suffice your existence

You just need to wait for that moment..to perish

but the heart has already...

it has given up

lying inside..

dying..

withering..

decaying..

in the darkness...

you go numb

numb not from fear of death

but from fear of living..

darkness floods..

darkess engulfs...

darkness in which...you can't feel one's self!

Circussing love

My love for you is a circus..

i walk on that thin rope..

scared that you might walk out on me..

but keep smiling trying to assure myself you'll never fall outta love..

I'm like the lion..

proud that i can catch anything..and make him my prey..

but I'm helpless around you..

cos you got the hunter to hurt..

I'm like the trapeze artist above the world..

swinging away in my glory..

but when i look down to reality..

i realize..

how deep i can fall..without you.

tear stains

You and me..

that was the pretty picture i painted for myself..since my childhood..

me with that smile..you with twinkle in your eye..but,

suddenly you vanished..you erased of off you from it...

and mercilessly all those colors went outta my life!

Now i stand on that plain paper..in this laborious life...

All alone!

tear stains replaced that smile...

now..a pitiable girl..with few traces of 'once a lovely girl',

love lost in her eyes

Clueless...

joyless....

Lifeless!

All by myself

All by myself..

none to give,

none to take,

none to listen,

none to talk.

All by myself..

none to spoil,

none to pamper,

none to laugh with,

none to cry over.

All by myself...

no longing look,

no soothing song,

no caring caress,

no tingling touch,

no kindling kiss.

All by myself..

Living lifeless,

Living loveless,

All by myself..

Yearning for you..

Yowling for you.

Let go!

Walking alone..on this path..
milestones crossed.
myriad of thoughts gone by.
countless doubts left uncleared.
Just 'blind' faith showing me the light.. *snigger*
isn't it ironic?
the deep rooted hope..
giving me the strength..
the undeniable belief in the voice of the li'l girl..
within me..
incessantly telling me...
"go on..go on..he's there..waiting!waiting for you"..
Oh!get me outta this plight..
Burn this hope alive..
end it!
Let me start over..
with no dreams of you..
Let go!Let go!