Humanity.

Humans are masochistic by nature

We bring upon ourselves, diseases to cure

We bring upon ourselves, crises to endure

We make humanity, itself, impossible and unsure

Humans become sadistic as they grow

We find every means to hit the other person’s low

We find every emotional, mental, physical pain to throw

We make humanity, itself, an alien and a foe

Humans are jingoistic from birth

We made dictators. Dictators’ who burned men alive in a hearth

We have infinite hunger for power whatever plague it may unearth

We made humanity, itself, extinct and non existent on earth

We walk around with needles with viruses

We prick ourselves, and everybody. We’re Lynchers!

We pick our own scabs, until our fanatic blood gushes

We may be mass of flesh and blood, but we’re walking corpses

We successfully changed the meaning of Humanity:

Iniquity

Barbarity

Depravity

Entropy.

All beings walking around as mere reflections,

Blatantly crisp and clear images, but not quite whole

Standing concave and convex-like,just reflecting, not owning any of their actions

Bent inwards and flexed outwards, with invisible abnormalities of the soul

Each heartbeat plainly mimicking the sound of existence

Starkly sonorous and loud but quite appallingly empty

Programming life’s tunes into inaudible songs of deathly silence

And proclaiming it as music of spirituality, Ah! The idealists’ repartee

Every feeling flowing as a perfect imitation

Of superlative craft but not quite pure, like a rolled gold trinket

Unashamedly faking every sentiment, Blasphemous pretension!!

1 carat of genuinity but proudly masquerading as a 22 carat

Forging every aspect of being a human

Forging any and every feeling that can ever be felt

Consciously, emotionally becoming an orphan—

in the name of freedom but in fact forging everything that we've left.

Reached a point, in belief, a very cynical point-

Where anything beautiful must have plastic in it

Where any love story must have a break point

Where anything divine has a nasty secret behind it

A point of Human Entropy.

The Indian Woman

Her wavy hair was plaited, parted and lined with sindhoor

Like Hailey’s comet has turned red in the night sky to allure

Her big black eyes outlined with earthy kajal

Were like onyx diamonds studded in the heart of ocean, surreal!

A round vermilion dot between her shapely eyebrows

Like the morning sun standing between two black mountains,it glows

Her moist lips quivering in their pinkness

Were like a rose petal waltzing with a raindrop in freshness

Cotton white saree flowing, hiding every detail yet accentuating every contour

Was just like that mysterious waterfall hidden deep inside the beautiful forest of yore

While her lissome body rested on the frame of the door

While her toes anxiously drew circles on the floor

Her eyes were fixed on the turn at the street

Awaiting for the sound of wheel crushing the gravel and concrete

Her face lit with a glow of relief at the sight of him

She lowered her eyes and smiled at him

She retreated back into the house before the rickshawallah could lay eyes on her—

The Indian Woman.

Wings of Angels.

A Time when my love becomes too confusing

A Time when my heart is breaking

A time when I think I’m not good enough for anything

A time when all my dreams to achieve something are dimming

Standing under the mighty expanse of purple blue and crimson

I seem so little, so tiny, unworthy of any recognition

I desperately search for an angel to shine a little light on me

To shower a mighty big blessing on me

An angel to take away all my sorrow,

An angel to clear my heart’s every woe

A comforting hand touches my shoulder. ”An Angel!An angel”--

I celebrate for I'm blessed with the angel

I cry and it wipes my tears and holds my hand

My troubled heart is not fixed but I survive the emotional quicksand

I talk and talk until my heart feels better, the angel nods and smiles

And I realize I know that smile, I’ve seen it a million times

Now I know,Angels are not those fabled winged things

But those in my life, guarding me under my heart’s awnings

They don’t solve my problems or heal my gashes

But they give strength to do it myself with continuing coaxes

Angels-Not the ones I keep searching in the sky

But those in my life that hold my hand when I let out a cry

Those who slowly bring the broken pieces of me together

Those in my heart that help me make myself stronger

Each of us has our own set of beautiful angels

Angels with no wings or a wand to cast spells

But Angels, Beautiful angels who pull us up from our emotional marshes

Who can release us from our fate’s agonizing jinxes

I've discovered "The Angels",I found my Angels on Earth

Angels walking with me, filling my life with mirth

Angels whose love for me has no ramparts

My angels, raising me up with the wings of their hearts

Being Human

      

 God,

Make me immune to all that I may see-squalor and slime
Make me impervious to all that I may breathe- stench and grime

Make me oblivious to all that I may feel-pain and agony

Make me human, an unemotional wall with boundaries as family.

Let me have no conscience to grapple with,

to forget the lil girl picking an apple from a heap of wet trash, with

 hungry eyes and dilated pupils 

Let this memory be erased that is burning my temples.

Let me have no decency to rebel

Just forget the scars, the black eye of the belle

Going on with her routine saying she fell from the stairs

Let me gulp down her lies, oh! Let me not shed my priceless tears.

Let me have no warmth to offer

Forget the boy who smiles unaware of his sickness, unaware of his parents’ sin

Living unbeknownst of the devilish lesions growing on his body

Let me have no guilt of being part of this travesty.

Let me feel no responsibility. For what is it to me? They’re not my kin!

Let me bury myself in superstitious beliefs and believe it’s their sin

With all the malignant forces sucking all the innocent life away

Unburden me; let me be numbed to the heartless human decay.

Unburden me from the guileless questions of orphans

Unburden me from the heartache of homeless elders

Unburden me from the miseries of violated women

Unburden me from the pure laughter of sick children.

Make me insensible to the cries of others

Make me shallow for the wounds of my fellow brothers

Bless me with rudeness and lewdness

Bless me with impotence and ignorance.

For isn’t this all Being human?

Then God!! Make me Human.

His li'l girl.Always.

Dedicated to Dad. On his B'day! :)

“Damn!! I am beautiful”, it was the first time that I paid myself a compliment in my entire life.
I indeed was looking extremely pretty in the white satin wedding gown.
The day had finally come, and thankfully nothing had gone wrong.

My hair has taken the form that I wanted it to take instead of having it’s own mind.
There was no pimple on my face, which was surprising as they find their way and definitely make a great appearance on very important days.
The gown fit perfectly even though I had eaten 10 chocolates the previous night to calm myself from the excitement.

No excited relative has come jumping to kiss me and botch up my entire make up.

So all in all, I felt like the prettiest thing on Earth.
Just when I was about done admiring myself, my dad had come in… He looked at me first, like I was a beautiful vision in awe, then his eyes changed their expression to happiness and then to pain…all in a matter of seconds.

He came to me and asked “All done? It’s time.” There was a sense of loss in his voice.

A tone matching a kid’s who had just lost his newly acquired prized possession.

I took his arm and walked.

For a second. My entire life until now had played it’s most important moments and all had him standing right by my side

His eyes lighting up in all happy memories

His eyes putting up a brave front whenever I was sad

The movies we both watched together

The books we discussed so intensely

The times I shut the door on him but later crawled back to his side( a gesture equivalent to sorry)

The few mornings, he complained that I fell asleep without giving him the daily goodnight kiss.

All of these flashed in front of me…and at that moment I became sad too.

Can’t I be his lil girl forever?

Protected from everything.

Promised to never be hurt.

Then I looked at the man with whom I’m going to spend the rest of my life with, smiling widely, waiting for me, ready to speak his vows.

He knew exactly how important my family was to me.

He realized long back how essential my dad was to me, when I kept yakking about him the entire day on our date.

He knew he had to win my dad to win my hand.

And he did succeed with his embarrassing attempts to win. In that I saw how much he loved me.

My heart longed to be his’

But it ached to leave my father.

I stared with a cloud of confusion at him.

He understood immediately, and smiled weakly and started walking towards me; all the guests were in as much confusion as I was, not knowing what was happening

He came to me and whispered “You’re always his lil girl, I wouldn’t take you away from him, Never. I just want to be part of your life, your love and you”

I smiled with tears in my eyes and looked at the man walking me down the aisle.

My dad, who was lost in his own ocean of emotions, embraced him like a son thankful for the much necessary assurance.

As the groom took his place back, my father looked at me with eyes full of love and joy and sense of relief.

We both laughed at our last minute childish thoughts, and he walked me down.

And there I was standing between two men, one who is still unsure to let go of my hand and the other anxious to take my hand.
Can a girl get any luckier??

I kissed my dad, and said “I’ll always be your little girl.”

Alone and Awake

I see the world drowning in an ocean of mediocrity

Man has successfully tarnished everything he can with utmost alacrity

Food is adulterated and Love is contaminated

Greatness extinct and Innovation endangered

A Man is raised to Martyr’s status just for doing his job

I questioned why? They called me “Arrogant” snob

Charity extended to the lazy slobs of the street

And I said I won’t join, Then they called me a Heartless Beast

Thousands of people turning into dung beetles

Feeding on the dirt, altering into mindless weasels

Adding one to their troop daily, in the name of “The greater good”

Nagging me to join them, in their cheap celebrations of sainthood

“It’s not cheating if it’s helping the man pass his test

It’s not wrong if it’s helping the man lead a better life” a wise guy professed

Argued I “Elevating the average ones to higher stature in the name of equality,

Giving them worth that they don’t deserve is a complete debauchery

Let an able man struggle on his own to reach his heights.

Don’t let the people feed on the brains of intellectuals like parasites

Let the quality of mind be elevated, not their unending greed

Let them not shrivel into a sniveling crowd of human breed

Mediocrity is strengthening it’s grip, as Quality of life is going to dust

Friendship based on give and take…Love based on nothing but lust

Let us not just be voyeurs, standing still, let us start again, and learn about Humanity

Walk with me and we’ll rewrite our future together, that’s heading towards calamity”

I took a step forward and I saw that nobody even tried

I looked at them longingly once again but no one came to my side

I sighed and walked, the sound of soil under my sole feet was like a whip lash

For I was alone in this fight, to clean the invisible barbaric trash

The angst of seeing a good entity not being respected

While the poor one being applauded and treasured

An ordinary thing winning over the inexplicable beauty of greatness

Is too much of a pain to gulp down one’s throat without feeling any vainness

I toss and turn in my self inflicted sleep deprivation

Fighting the new challenging ways of degradation

Searching for undiscovered cures for this Prodigal Humiliation

Lying awake, just to find a solution to annihilate this abomination

 Failure after failure…falling in to the pit of darkness

And making myself rise again fencing every weakness

I may be Alone and Awake through this journey

But I shall not succumb to the engulfing mediocrity

Alone and Awake I’ll be.

For the world I want to see.

I’ll strive through it all, awake and alone… 

Alone and Awake.

With love,Heaven

*Dedicated to A Phenomenal Woman, Ammamma (98 yrs)

Flitting onto better horizons, like a butterfly leaving a flower,

She was slowly leaving, a fact I was terribly trying to ignore

Tranquility set on her face, as her breath drew lower and lower

And she was no more, a frightening moment that seemed to last forever

She passed onto a better world they said, heaven may be

They garlanded their goodbyes with each and every tear’s essence

Gloom set over the entire family tree

And Smiles took a leave of absence

I was putting a brave front, standing tall with unwavering knees
But in truth, I was like a trembling leaf groping for a way for myself

To accept the reality and make peace
“She was old, she lived a full and happy life” I kept saying to myself

Alone, I lay in a fetal position, looking at her picture, reeling

That picture was the key; it unlocked my vault of memories

Reminiscing, alone I cried, for it was personal, a very personal feeling

Paying homage to each memory, dusting my heart’s galleries

Bringing those memories into clarity

The ones that I measure to be priceless and precious

Often looked at them with utmost joy and loving amity

And now I looked at them, hoping, they might bring a little solace

I didn’t cry anymore but I couldn’t smile either

Emptiness, sorrow, and an undeniable gloom hovered all over us

We’ve lost the family’s strength, the main pillar

That holds us together in happiness and in fuss

After the passage of few sluggish days, the fog slowly lifted

The family exchanged few smiles with each other

They learned to laugh in the memories that were gifted

 They resumed their humble routines together

I too smiled, but it wasn’t the same anymore

For I felt guilty, was it ok not to miss her anymore?

Was it alright to smile when she is not here anymore?

Was it not heartless to enjoy when she is not there anymore?

But then again, I was still remembering her even in my laughter

Maybe, thinking that she has passed onto a different world was a gaffe

Maybe she had just merged into my thoughts, into everyone’s, who were dear

Maybe her being was renewed within me as my strength and my laugh

Maybe that’s what heaven finally is

Being the laugh and the smile of your loved ones

Becoming their dreams, blossoming fragrant daisies

And so, I promise to give a beautiful heaven-my overwhelming joyance!

To you
With Love,
Heaven.

Cathartic Clouds.

Saw the vast sky wrapped in a multitude of clouds

Heavy gloom disguised in cotton shrouds
I cursed,for the day was bound to be morose and dull

I groaned,for I detested sitting in such profound lull

I watched the Sun desperately trying to have a peek

But the clouds were insistent on their hide and seek

Even he had to finally give in

For they were so many and he realized he can never win

They grew darker and darker

And slowly started their pitter patter

The earth enjoyed and rejuvenated in shower

Trees danced and flowers laughed, thanking the cleanser

After it all, the clouds gave way to the Sun, head bowed

I felt the day brighten, and was pleased

more than ever I valued The mighty star’s presence

And smiled in his warming resplendence

Then,it all got me thinking

The sky’s white dumplings and their raining

Everything in this world runs in cycles

Sunshine to gloom,heat to cold,stillness to ripples

Maybe Life is just the same, like a sky that has no bounds

Sometimes overcast with heavy and dark clouds

Scaring us with murky claws,pushing us into the gutter

But that’s just a ploy to make us stronger and better

We struggle with burdens heavier than ever

But they are, only to purify us into something finer

Once we empty our cauldrons of guilt, sins and mistakes we make

We nurture ourselves-in peace,in tranquility and we’ll rise again from our wake

Like the Sun shines again

And Surely the Sun will surely shine again.

At Dusk.

"Din dhal jaaye raat na aaye,tu toh na aaye teri yaad sataaye.- guide."

I’m afraid to sleep

I’m afraid to sleep

As night steps in wearing its glittering dress

I’m frightened of its beautiful darkness

I can’t fight the memories it brings in with it

I lose daily, maddening myself bit by bit

I’m afraid of the dreams that the sleep will bring in of you

Again and again, I’m afraid of losing my thoughts to you.

I’m struggling to make myself unfeeling, object-like and opaque

Trying to bury you under layers of hurt, anger, tears and heart ache

How to get myself out of this abyss?

How to draw you out of my heart and dismiss?

Even the blur of an illusion of you or a distant dream can bring it all back

Just the vision of you can make me defenseless-oh! what a cold attack

And if I sleep

And if I sleep

The dream I can never have, will unfold, in an awning 
autumn will prance in, disguised as spring

Mirage will flounce in, disguised as Oasis

Hope will be tricked by sweet reminiscence with pain as nexus

And I will fall vulnerably

Into the hungry ravine again, naively

Foolishly painting with colors in wild imagination

Only to be rendered sightless after it’s completion

Powerful pangs shall hit me later causing invisible burns

As I try to soothe them with my unending tear patterns

They shan't appease, for my tears are acids of pain

Burning me, turning me into a mere meek membrane

But I’ll sleep

But I’ll sleep

With a tear on my face I will wait for the dream…

The cruel dream to sow daffodils on the bank of my heart’s stream

I know they’ll die just tomorrow

And again I shall weep a deep ocean of sorrow

Nevertheless, I’ll put myself to sleep and reverie

At least my delusions will be flowery

Then maybe I’ll sleep forever

Then maybe I can dream of you forever

Then Maybe.
Just maybe.

Oh Mother!

You fashioned me with tender love and utmost care,
Woke me up with the musical chirpings spreading through the air,

Gave me fruits of varied tastes and many a companions in animals,

And I leaped jumped and played in happiness in the jungles

And when night fell, you sang to me through the lovely whispers of the wind

You rocked me into sleep wrapping warm blankets of flowers,helping me unwind

I built sand castles in the lap of your beach

Magnified them and started living a little out of your reach

But you were proud, for I had found something mine, a creative lil hobby

One day,I who never plucked a bud hitherto, axed a flowery tree for my luxury

You squinched but forgave me, thinking it was just an innocent gaffe

Though worrying that I might be turning this heaven into a riffraff

And I went on and hunted my brethren, my dear animals,

You stared, shocked and appalled at how easily I could kill my own pals
built something emitting black smokes, a machine I called it, choking you further

You coughed and I ignored, you bled and I didn’t even bother

But again you forgave me thinking it was just a brutal chapter

Though it hurt you, you were patient; you waited for me to change, to alter

I wasn’t paying heed to any of your pains

You understood that all I wanted was control over your reins

Then you showed your fury-shook the earth, wrought floods in the ocean

I was scared and vowed to take care but forgot all about it, yet another treason

Building many, polluting more, ruining most

You were counting my mistakes, I didn’t know, for I was a mad ghost

One day when I woke up, all I could hear were unpleasant cries

The changes brought about had suddenly hit me between my eyes

There was only the ruthlessness of sunrays burning my face

The harshness of wind cutting my skin, not a thing to embrace

Diseases, plague, pestilence spreading like wildfires

Stench, dirt, dust accompanied them as faithful squires

Not one twitter I could hear, not one sweet note I could listen to

Not one sweet blossom I could smell, not one fragrance I could drown into

Not one brother I could play with, not one leaping deer I could see

The vultures of my fate were circling above me

Where has everything gone? I was ignorantly trying to find my lost treasure

Everything has been taken away; the realization was more agonizing than a seizure

I saw your waters turn blood red, swelling and ebbing

I heard the wind’s howling, gasps of your weeping

I saw the volcano bursting with the hurt you gulped down, blistering for revenge

I felt the sky above me thundering, ready to avenge

I felt land beneath me trembling in shame and disappointment

Disappointment for carrying a child, bearing everything for it like a peasant

The realization has hit too late, I cry for the flora and the fauna, Oh mother!

And above all I cry for your comforting lap Mother!

Now I’ve learnt my lesson, please give me another chance

Please let me snuggle in your protective expanse

My heart yearns for your love, kindness, for everything that you’re Mother,

Punish me but don’t throw me away from your feet Mother!!

Oh Mother!

Have mercy Oh Mother!

Till death do us part.

I never liked the look of the body that housed me

I wished she were prettier,

I kept hoping she might suddenly bloom into a spectacular beauty

I was waiting for that moment,running hither and tither

I painted my lips red,my eyes black,but in vain

I was enraged whenever I looked at my reflection

I was restless, I was frustrated that I was so plain

I cursed God,saying i didn't deserve such an imperfection

I yowled into the pillow like a beast

I yelled at my very own face for a let out,for a release

but alas the pain only increased

sneering at my plainness,cutting me piece by piece

I stopped caring,i was dead

I lied down inside,in a deep sleep of  remorse

My body just walked,keeping me alive,drinking water and eating bread

for survival or mere existence,it dragged me with it  by force

One day,as it walked,it tumbled over a rock and fell

Scabbed it's knee bloody,but I didn't feel a thing

It walked on,plucked a rose and buried itself into it to smell

In me,I could feel the pleasantness of the sweet blossoms circling

I raised myself from sleep to get a better glimpse,but the rose's beauty stifled me

and i drowned back into the deep depths of my sea of melancholy

and my body pricked it's own finger with the thorn of the rose repeatedly

dripping blood,it went on piercing at the same spot unkindly

i couldn't understand what it was trying to prove?what was it's point?

a pool of blood has formed on the ground from it's jabbing.I was tired of it's game,

was it waiting for my sympathy?was it waiting for me to anoint?

since i couldn't feel the pain,the plan seemed just too lame

just then,it hit me,My carrier made me feel only life's mirth

it shielded me from the pain and suffering of wounds,bearing them bravely 

It showed me only the beauty,made me feel only the warming touch of earth

But the gashes and scabs it kept for itself,sustaining patiently.

All that has been eating me alive, had ceased,I felt a sense of tranquility within,

Suddenly all the negativity left me,I felt alive,i felt complete

I was whole,a much awaited sense of relief stepped in 

I had the urge to look at myself after this life rewarding treat

As I slowly peered into the waters of a lake,with anxious silence

--the same eyes,the same face looked back at me,but my reflection made me start

There was light in my eyes,glow on my face and the indescribable beauty of acceptance

I smiled in my celebration as i shall be such a beauty Till death do us part.

Guilty.

When I saw -A kid bickering me for money

That very moment I felt unclean,touched by that boy for a penny

Not even for a second did i even show compassion and care or kindness of any!

Yes.Guilty!

When I saw-A 16 year old sex worker

That very moment I felt disgust for her

Not even for a second did I think about the circumstances that brought her there

Yes.Guilty!

One day,with a broken heel i went to a cobbler

I saw this 10 yr old work,stitch by stitch,sweating under the sun

handed him my shoe trying not to touch him or get any closer

He smiled,took his needle and began his work joyfully like it were fun

I saw him work on my shoe,he sew it tight,checking everything

He inspected it thrice,making sure it was perfect

That moment it dawned on me, I've never worked in my entire life for anything

I hated people who sweated,looked at them like they were some kind of insect

I looked at the world through the window of my car

Untouched by dust,dirt and human brutality

The world was at my feet since i was born yet from reality i was very far

Unblemished by starvation, abjection and poverty

Why the difference between me and them??

What had i done to be such a snob and still have everything in the world
What had they done to be treated by the likes of me like they were phlegm

Who judged us?Who gave us our parts?Who made this confusing world?

As these questions buzzed in my head

I saw a kid crossing the street yelling "tea!tea!tea!"

He tapped on my knee,smiled shyly and "the merits of his tea" he recited

I bought it,sipped the tea from the ugly little glass,very dusty

When I saw-A kid asking me to buy his tea

That very moment I felt love for him

Not even for a second did I think about the dusty glass and the dreadful tea.

Can i change his life?and build a new life for him?

No.

And I stand still GUILTY!!

Loveaholic.

Daily mundane work sparkles with the continuing thoughts of you.

House chores become beach strolls when it’s for just me and you.

Not an extravagant and frenzied love but the one that comforts

The one that gives riches that are greater than castles and king’s forts

Memories. The times when you read a poem while lying down in my lap

The times when I tousle your hair and you peacefully slip into a nap

The lazy weekends when we lie in the bed until late in the morning

The dawns when you treat me like a queen with breakfast in bed, bowing

These are the Riches. Treasures of million little moments

Treasures. Jewels of billion memorable seconds

Living in every atom of my body

Guarded by my breaths, my army

Your embrace is more than home.

Your kiss is one big sweet honeycomb.

And oh that smile of million stars!! That smile is like a Christmas day’s snowfall

And at the end of each day your love is all I need and that is all.

Questioning God.

Are we just your play toys?

bound to deceive one another with our own ploys?

Are we just your hostages?
heads hung low,with not a vestige of prestige?

Unimportant.

Unpurposed.

agonies incarnate are we?to quench the blood-thirst of your elusive goals

Why dissipate our weak souls?

churning anger from the crux of tenuous heartstrings

Why spawn these stinging feelings?

Unkind.

Uncaring.

Whats the whole point of our existence?

Why drop us and mock us?What's your brilliance?

Are we to pick up your little hints and clues?

Only to be maddened by unending charms and voodoos

Merciless.

Ruthless.

Why create loved ones and then cruelly take them away?

Why conjure up beautiful dreams and lead us astray?

Why disguise evil in a beauty and beauty in a beast?

Are our tears your wine and pain, your feast?

Pitiless.

Reckless.

Is there an answer?Is there an answer?

For every teardrop of a mother after her loss in a fruitless War?

For every aching heart of an orphan for his unknown mother?

Give me an answer!Give me an answer!

Celestial Waterfall.

I saw her glowing in all her pride,

No heavenly body matched her light

She was a beauty, perfection’s very own guide

Every star twinkled curiously at her sight

I was intrigued by her presence

She was a mysterious object

I grew restless in her absence

She was mystifying, sometimes whole sometimes crescent

Everybody accepted her without any questions

But I wanted to know her depth, all her secrets

I patted her with my rays letting her know of my intentions

She echoed back, conversing through her wavelets

I asked her a million little things, nudged her to know everything

She answered patiently, though in puzzles

Her light flowing through the entire universe has now become my yearning

She shared her ideas and longings, but only in riddles

One day, I told her “You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen”

She giggled “But I’m not beautiful at all, I’ve these ugly spots on me”

“I don’t see any; you glow ethereally, cooling all the fire burning me from within”

She laughed at me like I were an ignorant. Adding another mystery.

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He knows not that I glow in his blazing flow

He is the reason for my luminescence

He is the season for all the joys in my heart that overflow

I radiate in his powerful glance and burning look, so intense

His searing power challenges my strengths

His unending questions sharpen my intellect

His perpetual presence unravels my mind’s labyrinths

His warming touch understands my heart’s confusing dialect

I wane in my own doubts, cruelly, knowingly

I wax when he probes for answers, unknowingly

He is the source of my light,both inner and exterior, the one and only!!

Take him away and I’ve nothing...for I treasure his taste very deeply.

 Unfold my mystery, my all?

Reveal my great secret!! and will I be enchanting anymore?

To be mocked at by him will be an ignominious fall

From where I can never rise; For I’ll lose my life, My paramour

 Flinching though.I told him “It’s all you, this entire glow, and all this beauty”

said he "What a blissful irony.But I shine for you and my burning love melted into your soothing calm
enamored am I  not of your external beauty, but of your core,dazzlingly shiny

I fell in love with you for you care for me with loving aplomb”

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His scorching strength, the reason for her Beauty

Her balmy caresses, the reason for his Power, his all

Together they're bound by a divine treaty.

Flooding the universe their love falls and flows like a Celestial Waterfall.